I’ve had a steady headache since I woke up this morning. I took some ibuprofen w/caffeine and that helped to take the edge off but I think it’s drained my energy.
I feel like I’ve had a whirlwind day, it’s been busy but not crazy. It’s also been fairly productive in strange sort of ways. The past few weeks I’ve been “off my game” spiritually (yes, I hate how that sounds but my brain isn’t functioning at its best this moment). I haven’t been reading or praying, nor giving as much attention to preparing for the sermon that is needed.
Today, was great though. I went into the office early, tidied up my study, read some scripture, prayed, read for the sermon, did a little on-line research/prep for Sunday. It felt so good.
Since I’ve been ill I haven’t made any pastoral visits–I didn’t want to share my germs. Today I called a few of the folks that have been on my mind. It was great to talk with them. I hate making phone calls–I’d much rather converse in person or via email. It felt good.
I also ran into several people from church today and its been great. I guess, the past week or so was a combo of vacation and sick days. Until today, I didn’t realize how much I was missing “being in ministry.”
I’m constantly amazed that this is what I get to do for work. How awesome is that? That I get to do something that fulfills me so deeply? I am blessed beyond measure–that is for sure!
I also received my first bill for my student loans from seminary. I wanted to croak–$503 a month! But then I came home, ate some dinner, started to realize what kind of day I’ve had.
Despite the headache, the tiredness, and even the loan bill, I’ve never been happier in my life. I feel content for possibly the first time in my life. I miss my hubby but know he’s just a phone call away and will be back in a few days, I have 3 crazy girls who make my life quite the adventure, and I get to do ministry. God has blessed me beyond measure and I offer up my thanks and gratitude today.
Holy One,
Thank you for this path, this place and time in my life. I never expected this, I never dreamed life could be like this. Thank you. Thank you for the peace and love that you have filled me with this day and all the other days. Thank you for leading me to this point in my life. I hope that I can now share these blessings with others who are in need. You’ve brought me out of the darkness and into your light. Thanks be to God. Amen.
how beautiful. I love the line in your prayer….”I never expected this, I never dreamed life could be like this, thank you.”
you sound in a very good place!
p.s. and don’t let those loans scare you, and if the monthly chunk is too much, negotiate! seriously–you can do that! also, check with your denomination…sometimes they have loan payback programs for people serving in rural or small parishes. I don’t know about your denomination, but I know the PCUSA has this in some places, as well as the UCC in other places.